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09 October 2010 @ 04:20 pm
title: Angie
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me.
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Kaoru/Toshiya, Toshiya/OC
Rating: G
Comments: i'm just posting all the fics i wrote here so i could make a decent archive and have it all together♥

Angie. She was the fault, she was the only reason why I was driving nowhere, while it was raining like hell. My mind was empty and blank, after all her words I wasn't thinking, I really couldn't understand how I was moving. I went to Die's home, I called him tons of times, he wasn't there, his cell phone was off, he was with Shinya, or drunk, or whatever. He wasn't there. I got into my bike again and there was me, going nowhere, driving like mad, crying and wet. I still don't know what carried me there but when I noticed, I was in front of his building, the first thing i thought it that it wasn't a good idea, it was so late.. really late... I couldn't bother kaoru with that, was childish. But as soon as i stopped the car my body started to shake, I was really cold, all my clothes were wet. I decided to get up from my bike and go to kaoru's house.

I'll ask him just for some new clothes.. just that, nothing more... nothing more.

I knocked the door a few times and kaoru opened the door, he wasn't sleeping or at least he didn't look like that... He even wasn't wearing his pajamas, he was with a baggy brown pants and a X-Japan t-shirt, when he opened the door and saw me, he looked surprised, I know why... it's 3 am and someone knocked the door, when you go and open you find your bassist (and ex-boyfriend) all wet because the rain, with a very soggy face because he was indeed, crying. He blinked again and he finally talked.

"Toshiya? What are you.. ... What happened?" His face was expresionless and so was his voice, it was like he didn't care at all, I just couldn't stand it more.

I wasn't thinking, because if i was i would never do that. I walked to him and hugged him tight
"She left me... Kaoru. She's dating with... other person." Silent tears rolled down my cheeks and I snuggled to Kaoru's body, looking for his warmth forgetting about that I was soaking his clothes too.

He was silent for a second, he did nothing. He didn't hug me, and then he talked.
"So what?" And his words hurt me like a real wound. I couldn't help myself, I started to cry loud, to sob. I moved away from him, I just wanted to leave to run away from his house but when I turn around I could feel his hand around my arm. The heat of his hand against my wet and cold skin felt weird, he walked and carried me to his room, saying nothing he dissapeared and came back with a towel and a some clothes in his hands.

"Dry yourself and change your clothes.. Or you'll take a cold." And he left the room, again, expresionless.

My mind was full of thoughts and feelings, I couldn't understand what was happening, he said that he didn't care did he? and now I was in his bedroom, really confused and wet. I couldn't think or move for a while, but finally I coughed and i decided that the best thing was dry myself and change my clothes. I moved and when I picked the clothes kaoru took, i almost cried. the pants and the sweater were mine. I dried myself and changed and got up, walking out as i could hear kaoru's voice. He was sitting on the couch in the mainroom, smoking and his face was as expresionless as before.

"Feeling better?" He gave a puff of his cig, not even looking at me

I sighed and walked closer "I am. Thanks... I-I think I will leave now. I don't want to bother you."

"It's ok..." He said and for first time he looked at me "Why don't you stay? It's raining and it can be so dangerous go out with your bike, wait... at least until the rain stops." He looked down again and almost whispered "I-I am sorry... about, Angie..."

I sighed and shook my head slowly "It's ok. I imagined it, somehow. I'm so sorry about before.. really sorry."

Kaoru shook his head and got up, and for a second my heart was going to explode, but he finally talked.

"Want something to drink?" I nodded slowly and he left, walking to the kitchen, i moved them to the couch and sit there, as fas as i could from kaoru. He finaly arrived with six beers, left them on the table, giving one to me.

"She's stupid for leaving you."

I sighed. Are you stupid too, Kaoru? That was the first thing I thought as I heard kaoru's words, Angie left me as Kaoru left me months before, I decided not to say my real thoughts and I smiled faintly "It's really ok."

He said nothing, he took the beer he brought me to me first and threw it to me, he took other for himself and started to drink slowly, I almost can say that he drank it all in just two sibs. I took mine and opened it, and i started to drink it in little sibs.

After a few hours and a few beers, I have to admit that I was drunk, really drunk. I was in that kind of point that you don't know what are you saying and that you remember nothing at the next day, looking at Kaoru as he was drinking his own beer, my mind talked without i mind it

"Are you stupid too?" I managed to ask, slurring my words.

Kaoru looked up and stared at me, clueless "Uh? What are you talking about?"

"You said that she's stupid, because she left me but you left me too..." and I looked up at him, waiting for his reply.

"Yes. Maybe I am stupid" and he took other beer and opened it, looking down and again speachless. I didn't know what to say or what to do, what the fuck does that mean?

"What? B-But.." and I stared at him deeply, looking for the words I wanted to hear in the depth of his stare.

But you said nothing, you took your beer and drank it, fast. Almost you finished it in two sibs, I couldn't understand what was happening, I just wanted a answer, I just nedded a reason, you never gave me one. My body was faster than my mind and I moved closer to kaoru, looking for his warmth and i snuggled to him "Kaoru..." But you got up and I fell on the couch, i looked up at you, this time with teary eyes "Kaoru."

You said nothing for a moment and then, you looked at me back "Toshiya you are here becasue angie left you, I'm sorry for you... And I don't like see you suffer but don't misunderstand things... "

I stared at you back and moved, sitting on the couch again.
"I'm sorry...." but I couldn't help myself, I looked down and buried my face in my hands and i started crying.

You started to talk then "It would be better if we sleep. You can stay and sleep with me in my bed. It's big enoough for both of us. Well.. You know that already. I'm going to take a shower first." And you left the room, this wasn't a good idea. In your home there's just a room in which you can sleep, the other ones are full of music, guitars and all that stuff. But, sleep with you in your bed again, in our bed. It wasn't a good idea. Anyway I got up and stumbled to your room, almost fallin' on the bed.

I was half-asleep, or well almost. Too much alcohol in my body, I was lying on the bed with my eyes closed when you came into the room. I didn't hear you, but you came closer to the bed, and strocked over my cheek, whispering "yes.. I am stupid..." It was then when I could feel you, drops of water fell on my face and I blinked, looking up at you. You were so close to me, were you going to kiss me? But you moved then, trying to get away from me, but I didn't want to, I wouldn't loose other chance.

I grabbed your arm and looked at you deeply "Kaoru..." and I leaned closer to you, closing my eyes and looking for your lips, kissed them slowly. You made nothing, you depended our kiss, leaned forward we both layed on the bed, kissing gently. I missed your lips too much, your touch too much.
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